Monday, December 3, 2007

Still sick!

Neil - Strep throat
Me - sinus infection
Evelyn - cold and pink eye
Wyatt - cold, pink eye and ear infection

Oy! Day 8 of the sickness continues. My ears have been "plugged" up since about 4pm yesterday. Every noise I hear echos.

I told Neil we're going to have to celebrate when we're finally feeling beter.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

We're Under House Arrest!

This is our 4th straight day of not leaving the house. We came down with "the crud" after our travels over the weekend and we're laying low right now. Evelyn and I came down with it Sunday/Monday. Neil and Wyatt got it Tuesday.

Poor little Wyatt, he had a brief cold a few weeks ago, but this is his first major one. He had a temp all day Tuesday and isn't really eating that much. I picked him up this morning and he felt like he had lost a little weight. My poor buddy, his nose is as red as rudolphs. At least I can control who we spread this to by keeping us all in the house. I'd hate for anyone else to get this bug. It's a bad one.

Evelyn and I are on the mend. Let's hope the boys follow suit soon. This weekend we're going to try to put up our Christmas tree. Evelyn and I have made some ornaments and I'm excited for her to decorate the tree. Other than the tree I'm not doing much decorating this year since the kids and I will be in CT visiting my folks for a good chunk on Dec.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

A wild weekend!!!

We took Wyatt out on his first trip this past weekend to Crivitz, WI. Neil's brother's family lives there with their three boys. We had a belated Thanksgiving on Saturday and my nephew was baptized on Sunday. The drive out was just about perfect. (5hrs) We stopped once to let everyone stretch their legs. Here's some pictures from the weekend:

Wyatt and his cousin Archer:

All the "Big" kids:

Archer's baptism:

And it wouldn't be a trip to Wisconsin without seeing this on the way home:

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

The Big BOOM!!!!

Neil and I were discussing our upcoming holiday trips last night and we heard it..."BOOM"!!! We both tore upstairs to find Evelyn crying on her floor. She had finally climbed out of her crib. I knew she could have done it a while back, but it was just a matter of time. Looks like we'll be converting her crib into a toddler bed sometime soon. I'd like to hold off until we're all done with travelling. Hopefully she'll stay put for the time being.

On a very happy note, last night was the first night since Wyatt was born that both kids slept through the night!!! Oh happy day!!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Peas Please!

Wyatt thinks that peas are da-bomb!

Monday, November 12, 2007

Bits and Pieces

Here's a few tid-bits
  • Our computer is at Circuit City getting a "tune-up".
  • Some outlets went out downstairs causing our freezer to thaw and we had to clean it all out yesterday. Yuck. Had to toss all my frozen breast milk.
  • Evelyn is still waking up at least once a night. I miss my good sleeper.
  • I'm having a hard time fitting regular exercise into my week. Maybe, I'm not very motivated.
  • I actually got a Kohl's 30% off coupon in the mail. I didn't think they existed until now!
  • My hair is still falling out like crazy. I can't wait for my hormones to regulate so it can stop. Almost the entire canister in the vaccuum was my hair, gross.
  • Since becoming a SAHM a year and a half ago, I have hardly any "dressy" clothes in my closet. I went shopping yesterday for something to wear to my nephews baptism and felt like I had no idea what is stylish.
  • I'm almost done Christmas shopping....yeah!!! I hate holiday crowds and aim to have all my gifts purchased by Thanksgiving.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Halloween was a big hit with the kids. We went trick or treating up and down our little street. It took about and hour since Evelyn walked by herself most of the way. She loved greeting the neighbors and saying, "trick or treat!" It will be fun with Wyatt walking next year.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Status Quo

Everything has finally returned to normal after Wyatt's first cold. It wasn't too bad and he tolerated it really well. We've been enjoying the warm weather and have been busy raking leaves. Looking forward to Halloween tomorrow and to see how Evelyn likes trick-or-treating.

I made my own applesauce this afternoon. It was really easy and yummy:

4 apples peeled, cored and chopped
3/4 c water
1/4 c sugar

Simmer over medium head for 15 min. Add cinnamon to taste. I plan on freezing the leftovers for Wyatt to eat.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Evelyn's wiskers?

Apparently Evelyn felt the need to shave this afternoon when I asked her to go wash her hands after coming in from outside. Neil accidentally left his razor within arms reach. There aren't enough swear words to capture what I felt. Luckily it was only a nick on the chin.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

The dog-days (or nights) of parenting

Funny, when you picture yourself having a family it includes fun times, happy times...everyone getting along. You don't picture wake-up calls every hour from your sick kids. This my friends is the dog-days of parenting. It's funny how soon I forgot what it was like when Evelyn was a baby and sick. Her nights were terrible because she was so congested. We did everything we could think of, but in the end she was most comfortable when in bed with one of us.

So now we're going through it again with Wyatt. The nice thing is that I know this will pass, I know in time as he gets bigger he'll be able to handle colds a little better too. Experience is a wonderful thing. I know that if I can manage to get a little sleep too, I might be able to dodge this cold that the kids have. I know that it helps for Neil and I to take turns with night duty so that one of us doesn't get worn out. (Ye-ha, tonight is my night off!)

There's something about your own sick child that pulls your heartstrings. You just want them to be happy and healthy and there's not a whole lot you can do for them when they are sick. Possibly the best thing I can think of is taking care of yourself to make sure you don't get sick too.

Happy sleeping to you!

Monday, October 22, 2007

What's worse than One sick kid????

Two sick kids!!!! Wyatt's coming down with his first cold today. Evelyn started sneezing on Sat. and came down with a cold. Wyatt started sneezing and coughing this morning and probably has the same thing. This is just in time for the FDA pulling all the cold medications for infants and children. I only ever gave Evelyn a decongestant (nothing for coughing), but as a parent it helped her sleep at night. And I can tell you the fastest way for a kid to get better is by getting some much needed ZZZ's. I still have one bottle of infant decongestant, but I think I'll save that for when we go on vacation in Dec. if anyone gets sick.

We're lucky because both our kids are usually in a good mood when they're sick. Maybe a little more clingy, but still at least they aren't miserable. So we will be sticking around the house this week so as to not expose others to our germs. I have my fingers crossed that Neil and I won't catch the bug. Although, with all the snot and sneezes, it's usually inevitable that I catch it.

Last week Wyatt tried Squash and Avocados. Both winners as he eagerly gobbled them down. I think we'll hold off on introducing anything else new until he feels better. Hope all of you stay germ free!!!

Monday, October 15, 2007

All by my lonesome

Neil left for a 3-day business trip to Oklahoma early this AM. This is my first time alone with the kids for 3 days and 3 nights. I'll have a little break on Wed. since my IL's will take Evelyn for the day. Shouldn't be too bad if the nights go ok. Can't guarantee that the kids will get their usual baths. (Neil usually helps me with bathtime).

Wyatt's been a little funky all weekend. I think he got a little behind on his sleep and that spiraled out of control Sat. night. He was an unhappy little guy with lots of crying and not a lot of sleeping. At this age (5 months) I'm always wondering: teething? cold? growth spurt? As much as I love this cutesy baby stage it's a lot easier once you get past a year. And it gets even easier after 2 yrs.

Am I a bad mom because I kept day-dreaming about our kids being able to take care of themselves? The ages of 8 and 10 sound glorious to me. The kids can get up on their own, serve themselves breakfast. Entertain themselves and even have regular chores. I'm probably forgetting that by the time Evelyn's 10 she'll probably be going through adolescence and hate me. But still, maybe there's the chance she won't.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

The adventures of Miss-Fancy-Pants and Mr-Goobers

(Aka. Evelyn and Wyatt)

So the other night Evelyn decides to sit on Neil's head while he's laying on the floor and exclaim, "Poop-face, Poop-face"....where does she come up with this stuff? She's also into saying, "Oh my Goodness" and "What the heck" in her daily ponderings, yet she doesn't always us it in the right context. For example this morning at Menards she said, "What the heck....that's a big crane". Hmm...doesn't sound quite right, but it's still funny.

As I walked around the store I was talking to myself saying, "I need to find a guy to help us". Evelyn spots the nearest shopper and says, "Hey you guy, can you help us?" He didn't look to interested in helping us find the carpet shampoo. I found a sales lady and asked her and Evelyn said, "You're not a guy!" Funny, she was taking "guy" so litterally.

Here's a funny picture of a Halloween costume that's just a tad too small:

Wyatt still seems to be the most content baby. We start feeding him rice cereal....he sleeps through the night. Gotta love that. He's also rolling over from his back to his tummy in the crib, so that probably provides a more comfortable sleeping position. He gives off the impression of "I can do anything" with his ever contant smile present.

Home "stuff"

Do you ever look around your house and realize it's looking a little neglected? Ours is looking that way...... and a little dirty too. I've been meaning to try to wash our carpet this past year and I've put other stuff before it. I'm embarassed, but we haven't washed our carpets since we moved in. That's 3yrs! Gross!!! I stare at the same spots in the living room everyday and so far "wishing" hasn't made them go away. So that's the big "To-Do" this weekend, washing the carpets.

I was also inspired by my mother in law to take off the slip covers for our couches. Gheez, they look brand new. I wonder how long it will take "Miss Sticky-fingers" or Mr. Drools-a-lot" to mess them up. Seriously though, it's my fault. I convinced Neil that we should get lemon yellow couches. Not so smart now that we have kids. Oh well, at least they were on clearance. I'm sure after the first stain I'll relax a little bit.

Tonight we're going out to get new blinds for the living room as well. For 3 yrs our neighbors have been able to spy on us through our large window. Not anymore!!! They won't get to see me folding laundry, looking through mail or changing diapers. Poor them...I wonder if we were good entertainment.

I hope our living room feels sexy after it's makeover.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Fall Fun

Great news!!! I'm going to be Godmother to my new nephew Archer!!! He's 1 month younger than Wyatt and will be Baptised Thanksgiving weekend. I'm so honored to have such a special place in his life!!!

We've been all about the outdoors these past couple weeks in anticipation of cooler days ahead. Friday night we headed to Victoria Valley Apple Orchard in Shoreview and got some delicious Harlson and Cortland apples. We stopped at a nearby park and had a picnic afterwards.

This morning Evelyn helped me rake leaves and enjoyed jumping in the piles. I hope I remember times like this forever. Wyatt is growing so big and Evelyn is asserting her independance. I feel like before I know it they won't need me so much anymore.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

The Growing Tree

I came up with the idea of painting the wall between the kids bedrooms and using it as a growing chart. I plan on taking a picture of the kids against the wall at every birthday to show how much they're growing. I'll probably also end up marking their height on the wall as well. It was fun to paint! Here it is:

Thursday, September 27, 2007

My "little" Big-Guy

Wyatt had his 4 month appt and shots yesterday. Here's his stats:

Weight: 18lbs 4.5oz (93rd percentile)
Height: 27 inches (95th percentile)

He was a little ouchie last night, but ibuprofen helped him sleep. I estimated he was around 17lbs, so I was a little off. Evelyn weighted 16lbs at her 4m appt. Looks like it will be time to move him out of the infant carrier soon.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Book Review and a Recipe for Green Tomato Salsa

Last Bite - A Novel of Culinary Romance by Nancy Verde Barr
I picked up this book at the library based upon the title. There's plenty of food references (aka. don't read this on an empty stomach) and some light hearted romance. It's the story of 29 yr. old Casey and her job as an executive chef for a national televised morning show. She stumbles into romance with an Irish chef at a near-bye restaurant. This is a fast, entertaining read that will inspire you to check out a few cookbooks.
(And here's a new recipe to use up all those Green tomatoes you have left in your garden)
Green Tomato Salsa/Relish
makes approx. 8 cups
8-10 Green tomatoes, seeded and diced
2 large onions diced
2 large sweet red peppers, cored and diced
2 granny smith apples, cored and diced (leave skins on)
1 Tbsp chopped garlic
1/2 c cider vinegar
1 Tbsp sea salt
2 jalapeno peppers, cored, seeded and finely chopped
1 teaspoon of ground cumin
large bunch of cilantro or parsley chopped
Combine first 8 ingredients in a stock pot. Bring to a boil and reduce to a simmer for 1 hour. Add cumin and fresh herbs. Use a hand blender or food processor to lightly chunk your salsa. Puree to desired consistency.
Ideas: Use with chips, tacos, burritos. Add a few scoops to soup base. Serve over grilled chicken or pork. Mix into rice for a side dish.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

29 goals for 29 years!!

Happy Birthday to me. Here's my To-Do list for the next year:

1. Try a new recipe every month
2. Exercise regularly
3. Create a family scrapbook
4. Give up my daily diet coke
5. Become more organized
6. Keep the kid's scrapbooks up to date
7. Make regular "Dates" with friends
8. Volunteer to help and organization or event
9. Make a new friend
10. Read more books by authors I don't know
11. Donate unused items/clothing
12. Research presidential candidates
13. Help a friend/family or neighbor in need
14. Read food labels before buying
15. Create more relaxing/recharging moments for myself
16. Think before I snack
17. Take a moment to enjoy my children everyday
18. Do something special for my 5yr anniversary
19. Find a new way to manage stress
20. Educate myself how to lead a greener life
21. Memorize Neil's cell number
22. Give blood
23. Write more letters
24. Eat less processed food
25. Be proud of myself
26. Attend church more regularly
27. Appreciate my husband more often
28. Recognize special dates in other peoples lives (bdays, anniv...)
29. Try to be more positive in nature

I've already started working on a few of the easy ones :o)

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Evelyn's first bad word

I knew this day was coming. I knew I couldn't prevent it. I didn't know that I'd laugh when she used her first bad word. Luckily neither Neil nor myself are big user of obsenities. We hardly ever utter the "s" or the "f" word. I am however an offender of the "c" word. (Crap) I must have uttered it some time during my conversation with a credit card company this morning. When I put Evelyn in her highchair for lunch and served up a PB&J, she takes one bite and says, "Holy crap Mommy, this peanut butter and jelly is delicious". I started laughing and she kept saying, "holy crap...holy crap...crap...crap...crap" Let's hope she got it out of her system.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Let there be Rice Cereal!!!!!

Wyatt had his first taste of Rice Cereal this morning and I actually think he liked it! With Evelyn we started around 4 1/2 months and for the first few weeks it was just as much coming out as going in. Wyatt seemed to be more ready with his "chewing" of the spoon and not so much came out. I have a feeling he'll be a big eater just like his sister.

We'll stick to rice cereal for the next month and then try avocados. (Yum, Yum)!!!!

James Page Blubber Run

Saturday morning we ran our first race as a family in the James Page Blubber Run. The 5k is sponsered by James Page Brewery and it's a silly race where costumes are encouraged. Neil and I ran the race 5yrs or so ago and loved the crazy theme. This year we ran it with coworkers and dressed up as a "Brew Choo-Choo". The double running stroller was the engine, I was the conductor, we had cars made up of beer ingredients and a "keg-boose" on the end. What a blast!

I think it took us about 45 min to "run", due to some "breakdowns" that the train had. The only bummer is that the beer line at the end of the race was too long for us to wait around in. The brawts were awesome!!!

Thursday, September 6, 2007

World's Largest Baby!

Just had to post this picture of Wyatt in Evelyn's doll crib. Wyatt thought it was funny and liked the little mobile. Evelyn didn't like her little baby brother playing in her new birthday toy.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Wyatt's Baptized!!!

Wyatt was baptized this past Sunday! He has the honor of Uncle Ryan as his godfather and Auntie Laura as his godmother. The service was very nice. He slept through most of it until the water was poured over his head. He let out a few angry cries and then settle down and listened to the priest. We had a nice luncheon at our house following the mass.

She's Two!!!!

I can hardly believe Evelyn's already 2 yrs old. Where does the time go? She turned 2 on August 27th and we had a quiet celebration here at the house with her grandparents and "yellow cake" (requested by the b-day girl). The phone was ringing off the hook all night with her relatives and friends calling to wish her a happy birthday. She loved it.

We had a pool party for her on Saturday and there were 11 little ones in our backyard. The weather was beautiful and Evelyn loved having everyone here. (The only downside is that she had a little head cold and everyone else in the house caught it too.) The good thing is that she didn't want her "guk" while she was sick and hasn't had it for the past 5 days. This maybe goodbye to the pacifier! Good timing!

Monday, August 20, 2007

Our First Twins Game!!!!

Neil got two tickets for the Twins and we decided to bring the kids. It turned out to be quite an adventure. We decided to show up a little late to give the kids time for naps and avoid the rush into the metrodome. What we didn't account for was all the road blocks we'd encounter trying to get to the game. We live about 3miles from the bridge collapse and it seemed yesterday virtually every major road or highway on ramp was closed for construction to accomidate the 35W detour onto HWY 280.

What should have taken us 15-20 min to get to the Metrodome ended up taking us about an hour. We showed up and it starts to downpour. I mean really, really hard. Neil takes Evelyn, I strap Wyatt into the Bjorn and throw a blanket over our heads and we book it to the nearest gate. We got soaking wet!! It was the 6th inning and we enjoyed the game and left at the bottom of the 8th to avoid the rush out. No major mishaps on the way home, but I can say that was the shortest Twins Game I've ever been too. At least they won!

Up and Running

This is week 2 of having a double running stroller and I'm loving every run we take! I got a great deal on this one from Craigslist and both Evelyn and Wyatt enjoy our jaunts. I don't run very far with them, only two miles. I worry about them getting too antsy, but maybe this week I'll see if I can take them a little longer. I time it so that we go out about 1/2 hr before Wyatt needs a morning nap. We get back and I put him down, pop on Sesame Street for Evelyn and I'm able to take a short shower and get dressed.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Must love animals

Monday night we went to Roseville's National Night Out celebration at Central Park. They had a petting zoo and Evelyn went nuts!!! (She reminds me of myself as a little girl. I was crazy about animals).

Sunday, August 5, 2007

A little bragging about my boy!

Wyatt had his 2nd haircut last week. I think it's easier with boys, because you can just zip their heads with an electric clipper and you are done. He sat content in the Bumbo while I did it.



Pretty darn good if I say so myself!!! Did I mention how big he's getting? I've started moving him into 6-9m clothes and he's probably between 16-17lbs. Yikes!! He's in the 97th percentile for weight and that makes me sad because I want him to stay a little baby for a little while longer. There's something so sweet about them being little. He's also an awesome night sleeper. I feed and put him to bed at 7pm, he wakes up to eat at 4:30am and then sleeps till 8:30am.

(If I could be guaranteed another one like him, I'd be willing to have a 3rd child.)

Craigslist Vent!!!

Over the past few years we've had our ups and downs with Craigslist. I always have to remind myself that things often fall through or no responses. Our latest project, building a deck, I've tried looking for people to build it on Craigslist. One guy came two weeks ago and it turned out he really didn't know how to build what we wanted. I felt bad after he left because that wasted both our evenings.

My latest contact sounded really promising. He is a licensed contractor and does home projects on the side. He gave me a ball park estimate over email and setup a time to meet for yesterday. He was a no show. I of course hope that nothing happened to him, but it was weird to not get a phone call or email afterwards with an apology or explanation. Seriously, what kind of people set up appts. and then not keep them? I just feel very naive because perhaps I trust people too much.

Monday, July 30, 2007

Rockin & Rolling!!!

As I type this I still can't believe it happened! At 2 1/2 months old Wyatt rolled over this morning. At first I thought it was a fluke. He was doing a little tummy time on the floor, I looked away and when I looked back he was on his tummy! I could hardly believe it, so I put him back on his tummy and he rolled again!!!! He did this a total of 4 times. I'm so amazed because Evelyn didn't do this till she was 5 1/2 months old. It's so amazing to me that their development is this different. I wonder if this means he'll be earlier to crawl and walk? It will be fun to see.

On a negative development side, Evelyn learned how to turn door knobs this morning. This means nearly all rooms are now at her finger tips. Looks like we'll have to buy some "baby-proof" door knob covers!

Sunday, July 29, 2007

The circle of Life

I found out this evening that my great aunt Corrine died this morning; she was 92. I can't say that I was close to her, but I have fond memories of visiting her and her husband Walt when I was a child. Although any death is a loss, living 92 years is quite an accomplishment. Do you ever notice when someone you know dies, it makes you evaluate your life? I like to think it's God's little way of telling us, "Hey, pay attention!!!".

When I think of myself in my final breaths of life I would like to have no regrets. I would like to think that I lived and treated humanity kindly. I hope that there are those I love surrounding me and celebrating the life that I lived. (Of course I also hope that it is quite a few years down the road!)

In thinking of death, I also think of new life. Every day someone dies and is mourned, but also there is life. A new baby takes his or her first breaths and the miracle of life starts all over again. Seems ironic doesn't it, but it is all part of God's plan for us.

Goodbye Corrine.

Friday, July 27, 2007

The Dog Days of Summer

With the temps in the 90's this past week, we invited some friends over for a pool party yesterday. It was so much fun to see the girls all playing together. Their mom Amy asked me if she thought that Evelyn and Soledad would turn out to be good friends if we continue to live in close proximity. I think it would be wonderful if they do.

Friendships that start out early in life are different from those that start later. The early ones are more like a sibling in nature because you both grow up together. Sharing the torments and treasures of childhood/adolescent years and if you ever run out of things to talk about, you can always laugh about the past.

My "best friend" (do we still call them that in our 30s?) lives in CT. We've know each other since the 4th grade. We rode the bus together in elementary school, wore the same clothes in junior high, dyed our hair blue together in high school. Luckily we never had the same taste in boys. We don't talk on the phone as often as we should, but our conversations are deep and true. We're both mothers now, so there's an added dimension to our relationship and less time to talk, but she's still my "best friend". Love you Kellie!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Guilty Pleasures

After I wrote my coffee post I started thinking about the simple things in life that give me pleasure. The older I get the more simple my guilty pleasures become. I wonder if that's because my view on life changes? Here's a few of mine:

A cup of hot coffee
The time to visit a favorite store
Finding a good book at the library
7:30pm - when both kids go to bed
A trip to the farmers market
An unexpected hug/kiss or smile from the kids
When Neil buys me a bottle of wine or beer he thinks I'd like
New running shoes
Looking through my scrapbooks
An hour to BS on the phone with a friend
Digging in the garden
An unexpected gift or card from a friend or relative
A delicious meal cooked by someone else
Cool mornings/evening and warm days
Freshly laundered sheets or towels

Everything seems better when you put a smile on your face. Sounds corny, but when I'm having a bad day or moment, I like to think of the next guilty pleasure I'll enjoy and it always helps ground me.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Coffee De-javu???

After my below post about coffee I find a care package on my door step and there's a bag of Dunkin Donuts French Vanilla coffee!!!! How often does something like that happen???

Love you Ryan & Erin!!!!!

April loves Coffee

It's offical...I'm addicted to Coffee. It's the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning and it always puts a smile on my face. I actually would rather enjoy a cup of hot coffee before the kids wake up rather than a few extra minutes of shut eye. My favorite brand/type is Dunkin Donuts,/French Vanilla I drink it with a shot of whole milk and a nice round scoop of sugar.
Here's the bad news....I'm currently out! My mom brings it to me when she visits from Connecticut. Only 5 more weeks till I see her and I see more Dunkin Donuts coffee. (I'm counting down the days). For now I'm making do with some other brand. Ahhh...I can't wait to get that coffee.... just thinking about it makes salivate.
Speaking of coffee, I enjoyed a wonderful iced coffee at Java Train in St. Paul a few weeks ago. It was the best one I'd every had. I'd highly recommend a visit!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Ode to Mr. Noodle on Sesame Street

Evelyn loves Mr. Noodle and his brother Mr. Noodle on Sesame street. We dedicate this picture to the both of them! (I just hope she doesn't start sticking anything small up her nose)

Monday, July 16, 2007

Does not going to church = bad Christian???

I'm not quite sure why I hold this double standard for myself. I don't feel other non-regular-church-goers are bad Christians, so why do I feel that way for myself? I feel bad that I've only taken Wyatt to church once since he's been born. I feel bad that the last time I took Evelyn to church was on Easter. Most of the time it's just easier to go by myself if I can. Evelyn squirms, talks, wants to run know the normal toddler behavior when you want them to sit still. I feel like I don't get much out of mass when she's along because I'm too busy trying to keep her happy/quiet and not disturbing the people around us. I remember before having kids being distracted during mass by a child nearby and thinking to myself that I wouldn't take my kids to church until they could sit still for an hour. Lofty expectation for a child of any age? Yes.

I just feel like the past two months I've been so wrapped up in trying to achieve status-quo in our household that I've forgotten about my relationship with God. Last night I realized I hadn't even thanked him for giving us Wyatt. So I've decided that if I can't swing getting to church on a regular basis in this point in my life, I can at least make a quite "date" with God to have a conversation once a week.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Time-out for Mommy

I'm beginning to realize how important it is to schedule some "time-out" for myself. My work load is twice as much as I'm use to and by the end of the day I'm usually mentally exhausted. It's funny because when I invite someone and their kid(s) over for play dates, it's usually also a break for me to get to talk to another mom. As a stay at home mom or a working mom, it's essential to have a network of other moms to relate to. It gives us time to talk about our mommy concerns, vent about our frustrations, and shoot the breeze about whats going on in our lives. My "Mommy Network" helps keep me sane and from torturing myself with guilt.

I realize no matter what our circumstances in life, all of us moms feel guilty about something. My other mom friends that work feel guilty about sending their kids to daycare. Some stay at home moms feel guilty about snapping at their kids when everyone having a bad day. (Right now I feel guilty about disciplining Evelyn so much) And almost all moms are wondering if their doing "the right thing" be it discipline, feeding, scheduling, etc... We're all just trying to do the best that we can and the guilt we feel shows how dedicated we are to our children. I guess guilt = love?

My friend Jen borrowed me the book, "Mommy's Locked in the Bathroom", by Cynthia Sumner and it's been a really good read. I've found myself laughing out loud at some of the authors experiences. For me I guess it all comes down to humor. Be it a good-bad day or a bad-good day, if I can try to find some humor through out the day it sure does help. Our kids do so many cute and wonderful things all day long. If I can just learn to stop and appreciate these funny moments I think I'll be a happier mom.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

"Loving Two I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you? Then he is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as you've never shared me before. I hear you telling me in your own way, "Please love only me." And I hear myself telling you in mine, "I can't," knowing, in fact, that I never can again. You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again. But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying him -- as though I am betraying you. But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection. More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast. But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two. There are new times -- only now, we are three. I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other. I watch how he adores you -- as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of his new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you, I've given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you -- only differently. And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you'll never share my love. There's enough of that for both of you -- you each have your own"

Sunday, July 8, 2007

My little firecrackers! We had a nice 4th of July and were able to make it to Central Park to listen to some music. Wyatt is smiling up a storm lately and I hope this is an indication of his temperament. Seeing their pictures side-by-side, I think they look alike.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

It's hard to believe that Wyatt's only been here for 7wks. It seems like he's been part of the family for so much longer. I guess that's a good sign that he fits in well. His little personality is starting to come through. He's super-smile-guy first thing in the morning. I remember Evelyn was like that too. I'm getting to know his little cries. He lets out a short loud one when he's tired of being in the bouncer-seat too long. He does this with a little scowl on his face. It's funny, it almost sounds like he's saying, "HEY!"

When I get up at night to feed him and I switch sides, he often gives me a big 'ol smile and a little coo-coo before he finishes eating. It makes getting up at night to feed him so worthwhile. I also know that our little "midnight-dates" won't last forever. I looked fondly back to feeding Evelyn at night when the house was so quiet and I could just hold her little body in my arms. Now I have the insight to enjoy these times with Wyatt while they last. Don't get me wrong though, I can't wait to get a full night's sleep!
I'm looking forward to Wyatt's personality developing. Will he be easy going? (Probably) Will he be a cuddle bug? (I hope so) Will Evelyn try to boss him around? (Definately). It will be fun to find out what his favorite songs and activities will be. I look forward to our life together.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

4 more days until I start work again. I'm kicking myself wondering why I didn't ask for 12 wks off instead of 8? I'm sure they'd give it to me if I asked, but I'll have to pick up my part time job anyways and I just asked that I be allow to "ramp-up" for the next month instead of accepting my full "part time" work load.

I'm thinking this is why I'm feeling a little stress and on-edge this week. I hope I'm not putting too much pressure on myself and Wyatt to get us into some type of reliable nap schedule. When he sleeps when I want him to I'm ecstatic. When he doesn't a part of me is bummed out. But seriously, how can I expect a 7 wk old baby to fall into a schedule that I've set for him? As my mother-in-law would say, it's my "type-A" personality rearing it's head.

This morning we had a period of about 30 mins that was complete meltdown for everyone. Wyatt was inconsolable (gas pains), Evelyn was crying and swatting me because I was giving him all my attention and one of the cats was howling as well. Oy! I felt like pulling my hair out. Instead, I closed the living room window so that none of the neighbors could hear what was going on. I put Wyatt down on the floor and let him howl for a few moments as Evelyn sat in my lap and we sang "Row, Row, Row your boat". We were a sorry sight. Luckily Wyatt worked out the gas and wore himself out that I was able to put him down for a nap early. Then I gave Evelyn an early lunch and she's sleeping now too. Pure bliss, except that one of the cats is now circling my feet meowing for attention.

Monday, July 2, 2007

I did it this morning! Our first excursion (all 3 of us) to some place other than the park. We headed to Rosedale mall and only stayed an hour, but I was so glad that no one cried! Whew, I have hopes that we'll be able to do much more in the future.

This weekend Evelyn got to see her cousin Aiden a few times. It was fun to get the two kids together and they seemed to enjoy each other's company. I've wondered what will happen when the kids get older and and only want to hang out with their own sex? Out of 9 great grandchildren, she is the only girl. Who will Evelyn hang out with? Maybe it is good for her to be around all boys?

At the very least I'm sure she'll have some "girlfriends" once she gets into school. And of course, she'll always have me. I'll probably be "ok" until she hit's about 9 or 10. Then I'm sure she won't think I'm cool anymore.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Naps, Naps, Naps...what would I do without them? This week I decided to start to get serious about getting Wyatt into a nap schedule. I didn't have Evelyn in one till she was about 10 wks, so I'm feeling pretty ambitious since Wyatt is only 6 wks. So far, so good. Yesterday he took 2 decent naps and a little cat-napping in the evening and he seemed to sleep better at night. Today I'm aiming for 3 decent naps. The only bad thing about a nap schedule is that it tends to tie you to the house a bit. Our only excursions seems to be walks around the block or playing in the yard. I'm ok with it for now as it's quite the ordeal to get all three of us out of the house anyway. And with him still eating every 2-3 hrs during the day it's just easier to stay home.
Evelyn's doing a little better this week with the jealousy. I'm able to spend a little more alone time with her when Wyatt naps. I'm also getting the hang of involving her in caring for Wyatt. This morning she told me she was "Mommie's heppa" (Mommy's helper) as she put Wyatt's diaper in the garbage for me. I'm also looking into an evening activity that she and I can attend alone. Maybe a music class?

Monday, June 25, 2007

The beginning....

Today is the day I decided to start blogging. I've been thinking about it for a while, but have resisted because I'm not sure I want other people reading my personal thoughts. But, alas I have realized that getting my feelings out will probably be very theraputic for me. Maybe someday, I'll be able to look at past posts and laugh about what was going on in my life that day. Hopefully I'll see how far I've come in life. And one day even further my children might be able to read my entries and see what their mom was like in her 20s. (youthful, naive and very much in love with life)

I guess that's part of the reason I want to share my life on paper. I would have liked to look back in history to see the thoughts and feelings my parents had raising children. Did they encounter the same frustrations? How did they handle discipline? Most of the time when I ask them questions, they can't really remember. And did they relish the time that they had with us? Would they want to relive those days?

My life seems to have been pushed into full speed since becoming a mother. The day's blend into each other. The weeks drift by and all of a sudden you're planning another birthday party or buying the kids bigger clothes. So many times I wish I had a magical pause button so I could fully encapsulate a moment and stay there for a few hours. Something funny that Evelyn says, Wyatt's first morning smile...these are the reasons I became a mom. So many "magical moments" make up my days and yet they're gone as fast as they happen. I often find myself calling Neil at work to tell him about our "magical moments" in the hopes of sharing these special times with someone else.

So what do I hope to gain from blogging? Perhaps some perspective on life that I can only get by revisiting my past thoughts? Maybe it's to better share pictures and stories of the kids with my family. Or perhaps it's just a blank friend that will never offer advise and just listen when I need to vent. Whatever the reason or benefit, I hope that it will be a good experience.