Today is the day I decided to start blogging. I've been thinking about it for a while, but have resisted because I'm not sure I want other people reading my personal thoughts. But, alas I have realized that getting my feelings out will probably be very theraputic for me. Maybe someday, I'll be able to look at past posts and laugh about what was going on in my life that day. Hopefully I'll see how far I've come in life. And one day even further my children might be able to read my entries and see what their mom was like in her 20s. (youthful, naive and very much in love with life)
I guess that's part of the reason I want to share my life on paper. I would have liked to look back in history to see the thoughts and feelings my parents had raising children. Did they encounter the same frustrations? How did they handle discipline? Most of the time when I ask them questions, they can't really remember. And did they relish the time that they had with us? Would they want to relive those days?
My life seems to have been pushed into full speed since becoming a mother. The day's blend into each other. The weeks drift by and all of a sudden you're planning another birthday party or buying the kids bigger clothes. So many times I wish I had a magical pause button so I could fully encapsulate a moment and stay there for a few hours. Something funny that Evelyn says, Wyatt's first morning smile...these are the reasons I became a mom. So many "magical moments" make up my days and yet they're gone as fast as they happen. I often find myself calling Neil at work to tell him about our "magical moments" in the hopes of sharing these special times with someone else.
So what do I hope to gain from blogging? Perhaps some perspective on life that I can only get by revisiting my past thoughts? Maybe it's to better share pictures and stories of the kids with my family. Or perhaps it's just a blank friend that will never offer advise and just listen when I need to vent. Whatever the reason or benefit, I hope that it will be a good experience.